serendipity and starlit dreams

i need new music i’m dying but not like, chill music. i need getting ready/going out/wake...

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 21:49:17 -0500

i need new music i’m dying

but not like, chill music. i need getting ready/going out/wake up/get excited music.

..anybody?

"Hey, if you feel it and you don’t do everything in your power to reach for it, you are..."

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 15:18:07 -0500

“Hey, if you feel it and you don’t do everything in your power to reach for it, you are basically slapping life in the face.”

'09.

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 22:45:00 -0500

laurencephilomene:

missbrill:

hazelweatherfield:

allknots:wolfbearwolfbear:

1.What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
.

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
no. yes.

3.Did anyone close to you give birth?
no.

4.Did anyone close to you die?
no.

5.What countries did you visit?
none

6.What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
i think i want to just be happy with myself, mostly

7.What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
january 1. november 27. june 11. july 3. september 3? and some other days i don’t know the dates of.

8.What was your biggest achievement of the year?
something i don’t want to share, actually, sorry

9. What was your biggest failure?
missing all those opportunites. not telling him how i feel. not telling her how i feel. letting her do what she did. letting my family hurt so much.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
mentally, yea. and i mean, i sprained my ankle i think

11. What was the best thing you bought?
this sketchbook thing. it kind of spiralled into something big.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
?

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
me, i guess

14. Where did most of your money go?
books. food. film.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
there was this day when i thought something was going to happen.. it didn’t happen, but it still felt really nice.

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
the way we get by, spoon

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? i am so much better.

b) thinner or fatter? thinner.

c) richer or poorer? poorer, probably.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
adventuring. taking risks.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
sleeping. complaining.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
hopefully helping at the homeless shelter. but with my family.

21. Did you fall in love in 2009?
sort of. is that possible?

22. How many one-night stands?
none.

23. What was your favorite TV program?
gossip girl, i guess

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
not hate, but dislike, sure

25. What was the best book you read?
this is what i want to tell you by heather stone. and then a ton of others, but i get them all mixed up; i’m not sure which i read for the first time this year, because i reread books a ton.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery? the shins, matt duke, elliott smith. not so much of a discovery but a newfound appreciation, i guess.

27. What did you want and get?
the easiest way to answer this is with the tangible things… my grandfather’s old underwood typewriter.

28. What did you want and not get?
a tattoo. but that can wait. a brown bunny.

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
500 days of summer. and my sister’s keeper.

30. What did you do on your birthday?
it was the day of the school fashion show. so i walked in the show and went out to dinner after. it was lame.

31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
photography

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
fashion concept? i mean, i don’t wear pants. i hate pants. i wear dresses and tights and skirts a lot.

33. What kept you sane?
photography. quiet moments.

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
i’m not sure. answering these questions is harder than i thought

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
this year? jesus, a whole fucking lot.

36. Who did you miss?
hw, sw, bd, hb, and tons of others.

37. Who was the best new person you met?
i don’t know. but there’s this person who was always sort of my life who i finally got to know, and i could kind of consider it meeting him for the first time. he’s wonderful.

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
everyone needs to feel needed.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

“still falling, breathless and on again…around, broken in two… like two strangers turning into dust… i could possibly be fading, or have something more to gain.”

Photo

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and black and white

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and black and white

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i actually picked up my camera and took photos today. dinner time, then i’ll upload more.

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i actually picked up my camera and took photos today.

dinner time, then i’ll upload more.

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my room right now

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my room right now

it will just take a minute

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it will just take a minute

this is what i believe:

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I don’t believe in a one and only, because the world could never be so cruel. Think of how few people would never meet that One, how many people would be left empty. What if the one with whom your soul was born and split, as believed by the Greeks, ends up on the other side of the world, a place too far away to reach? What about the sons and daughters who die in war, in alleyways, in cold, sterile hospital wards? The people who get too sick in the head or the heart to love? Or the ones who make the simple mistake of being with the wrong One? It cannot be, that there is only one for everyone. There are Ones. There are the Ones that we find and lose and find again or anew, along the way.